Suicidal Thoughts

As was touched on at the beginning of this website, suicidal thinking is a fairly common temptation for those dealing with transgenderism. I can tell you right up front, that if you give into this temptation, that comes from the tempter, Satan, that it will become an even greater temptation after your first attempt. There is something about crossing that line of self-harm that leads to further suicidal emoting. So, just don’t go there if you can help it. Call upon Jesus for help.

If you need to, check yourself into a safe place, like a psychiatric hospital. But, I can tell you that it is not a fun place to be. It was an awful feeling … being locked up and confined. Signing those papers during admission was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. But if you need to do it for your safety, do it.

Have someone safe that you can call if you’re struggling with suicidal thoughts. Talk through what you’re feeling, why you are in despair. There are emergency hotlines on which you can call to talk to someone that has been trained to help you move away from harm. It helps to talk to someone that is calm, soothing and level headed.

Sometimes it can be beneficial to make a list of all the reasons that you should not harm yourself. I include loved ones, friends, even non-Christians who would be hurt by my inappropriate action. The Bible is very clear that you are not to do yourself harm, either by making an attempt on your life, or by cutting, or bruising, or any other type of self-inflicted injury. Paul, in 1 Corinthians 6, says, “Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore, glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s.”

When I tried to take my life, I first attempted to do it on someone’s birthday … I really wanted to hurt him … but I didn’t know why I was so angry with him. Jesus eventually showed me why I had issues with this man, and it was the beginning of getting free from my bondage to transgenderism. God also used the story of the Philippian jailer to help me … Paul cries out to the jailer, in Acts 16, “Do yourself no harm, for we are all here.” The “we are all here” reminds me that God is with me always and that there are lots of loved ones and friends surrounding me.

If you are all alone, learn to make friends who will care for you.